I am not Martha Stewart.

So today is Christmas Eve (obviously) and it is traditional for my sister and I to bake goodies for the family. As my sister is married and has begun new traditions with her new family, it is pretty much up to me to live strong and to carry on what we started. I reckon I might be under prepared for a job this big.

The cookies were way too gooey and not cooked all the way, and the brownies burned like a champion.

Oh well. There is always next year.

Highway 50

So today was a disaster. I went looking for the Bealls in Winter Garden because they have this sale going on and mother wanted me to pick something up for her. I spent two stinkin hours driving around looking for this store. The worst part about it is that I was one street away from being where I should have been. ONE. And it took me what? TWO HOURS. Man, I had some serious teenage angst. I just need to invest in a GPS. Those suckers never leave you astray.

Cheese and rice, what I do for the love of a parent.

So final exams suck.

I'm exhausted.
I'm angry.
I'm stressed.

Why can't me and my friends just open that pet shop/ ice cream store we have always dreamed of? Who needs college???

Procrastination will bite us all in the rear sooner or later.

So I got this blog thing with intentions to update it at least once a week.

We see where that's got me.

And I usually feel compelled to update the rest of the world on everything that has been going on since I last posted. So instead of writing it in detail, I will merely lay out bullet points of the last month and what has been going on. Well, I will number them. I don't think this thing comes equipped with bullet points.

1. Began working on a crazy load of films.
2. Began my first day at Starbucks!
3. Went to a football game somewhere.
4. Went to the Anberlin concert.
5. Went to the MuteMath concert.
6. The parents came back from Georgia.
7. Went to see Copeland.
8. Had some good times in between there.
9. Had a huge friend disagreement.
10. Ate sushi with Chris and Rachel!

I'm sure had I kept this thing up to date, a lot more of these events would make sense and a lot more detail would be placed in there. But I'm ok with not adding it. I'm sure I will write about it eventually.

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For some of us at UCF, it's Family Weekend.

This past weekend was family weekend at UCF. It's a time where family and child reunite. It is an oppportunity for families to really get to explore the campus and run wild. Weekends like this really are difficult because my family isn't here. It gets to be really hard to listen to my peers grumble at the fact that their families are here and discuss how hard it is not to drink while tailgating. If only all the world's issues were as "difficult" as that.

Anyway, I know had my parents been here, I would probably be the same way. I would probably rather them not be here interrupting my new found freedom. I would want them kept at a distance. But they aren't here and the distance between them and myself is not voluntary. When I signed up for this whole UCF college thing, I did it with the intentions of being able to see my family when I needed to. I did it so I can go home whenever I wanted to and have a lively house to return to with meals prepared just for me. (I know, how spoiled does that sound.) I had everything figured out. It's just a bummer that none of it happened that way and none of it will.

I have learned something this past weekend though. I realized how important my friends are to me, and I realized how much I need them to always be there. Well, four certain people anyway. And what's really cool is that I know they always will. This is just such a stressful time in my life, and a lot of times I really do feel alone. But when I think about Chris, Jonathan, Genna, and Rachel, I realize that as of right now I have all the family I need. When we aren't together I am usually thinking about them and praying for their constant safety. If anything were to happen to them I would just lose it. I sincerely would not be able to cope with that. When we are done with college and move on to the next stage of life, it is going to take a whole lot of work for these people to not keep in contact with me. They will have to completely change their names and move out of the US. It will have to be drastic. What those four don't know is that they will never be able to get rid of me. They are a white shirt and I am spaghetti sauce. No matter how hard they try, I will pretty much always be there.

They are my family, and I am not planning on letting them go.
There is no other group of people I would want to experience this whole "life" thing with.

Hello, my name is Crazy and I am going to thump you with a Bible.

Today on campus we had this guy who decided to come and preach to the masses. Well, I wouldn't really call it preaching. He was more or less sending everyone to hell. It honestly is people like this that scare others away from Christianity. If I wasn't a christian, I honestly would be turned off by the whole thing.

I just wish I knew how to feel about him. I am initially disgusted and and ashamed because he is living up to the "pushy christian" stereotype. He is holding up his mega size sign and assuring everyone that they will burn for eternity. My next reaction was gratitude. This my sound harsh, but I am thankful he was out there parading himself around. That way when other people meet me, they realize that not all christians are like that. Not all christians are pushy, and judgemental. We are people just like them except we have God in our lives. My last reaction was pity. As I walked by I heard people mocking him and encouraging him to keep going. I don't know if this guy realized that people were not egging him on because they liked what he said, they did it to poke fun at him. It was really hurtful for me to watch him make himself out to be a joke. It's just hard to know how to recieve this kind of intensity.

I guess at the end of the day, all I can do is continue to pray for my campus. Pray that their view of christianity hasn't been forever destroyed. Pray for an opportunity to meet them and if not meet them, interact with them somehow. I can hold doors open or help them if they are struggling. Interact with them in a food line or on an elevator ride. Or simply smile at them. Just anything for them to know that not all christians are like that. Anything for them to give christians another try.

The Starter

I pretty much invested in one of these things because a friend of mine Chris has one. I would never considered myself a blogger but a blog lurker because I read other people's blogs all the time. And the more I thought about it, I realized that it would be really cool to have one of these things throughout college. I don't know about after, but it will be fine for now.

Last night me and Chronathan (my friends Chris and Jonathan) went to see this amazing band called Monochromatic. If you ever get a chance to see them live, you will thank yourself a thousand times over. They were absolutely amazing.



http://www.monochromaticmusic.com/